Krist grew up far away from Christianity but somehow Jesus found him and he wants to share this journey with everyone. He works in the Washington DC area and enjoys going to church and hanging out with friends.But in the Hindu religion, we are all stubborn, which I think is from the many rules and regulation. Because of them, we think we are the superior beings on the planet. I don’t know why since the days of my Childhood onwards, I had a strange feeling that there is something out there which can break all the rules. Like maybe God has created us to be part of Him. But in my religion, there were no answers to my questions. All I was supposed to do was follow the instructions or manual to get praise or blessing from God.
I had a question at my back of my head. "If we don’t obey god or if He created us and we turn into an evil person, then why did God create us?"
My journey started with my religion, which sometimes makes sense and sometimes it don’t, but it’s my family tradition and culture, which I can’t fight back. And even If I did try that, my family would fight back at me, as if I am possessed. Many don't really want to know the what would happen if they had to do the same thing. It’s horrible, and with parents like mine you have no idea...
Like I said, since my childhood, I had a feeling that there is something out there which can help me to make my life more sensible and have meaning. My middle and high school were Catholic schools, so that was something which really inspired me to learn more about Jesus too. But I was restricted from learning more about the meaning of life due to my family boundaries. My life went on and all the questions in my mind built up with no answers. It created a block in my head which asked me, “Is it true or false..?” With all my building blocks in my head, my head was totally blocked with all the customs and religions of my country.
Frankly, my family believes all the religions: Hindu, Muslim, Christians, etc. I tried everything. I went to a mosque to get my answer, but no answers, and I went to Church to seek my doubts, but in vain.
I was told that there is a reason for everything, and that was the only thing that was given to me, which I consider my first step to knowing about God.
My college graduation day came and I was told that with all the education I possessed I can be the leader or ruler of the planet and I can do anything I want to. But that doesn't make any sense. My family’s relatives were back stabbing my parents and the people whom I loved, so I prayed to all the gods and goddesses of the Hindu Religion and also pray to Muslim God and finally to Jesus to make my life not to be so complicated.
It took me a while to get the result from each and every God. But nothing came up. I was lost and I felt like breaking my relationships with my parents and the people whom I loved (Not entirely, But I was like a flesh without a soul). I was willing to do anything. My heart was wounded with different things, But I kept on going, because “Everything happens for a reason..." With that in my mind, I was totally devastated in having a relationship with God. The Hindu prayers and offerings didn't make any since. I was hopeless.
I really needed a break from my education to know something about God. Finally, I got something in my head to pray to Jesus, to seek the answer I was looking for.
I graduated and I was in job market, but I needed something more than that. I remembered there was something out there that is calling me, and I didn't know why. So that's when I finally decided to pray to Jesus to remove all blocks and to help me find the path that lead to Him.
After a few weeks, I got a advice from best friend in India to apply as a student in the United States which could help me to get out of my mess, but I totally forget that it was Jesus who planted that seed within me, especially with my whole religious barrier to asking questions. I was so excited to apply, but had to I fight with my family to go to the US for further studies and to get a job. The most puzzling question was, "How did I got so much strength to fight with my family?"
I was so eager to come to the USA that I didn’t listen to anyone, not even God, because I was excited like a baby getting his tricycle for the first time. But the enjoyment lasted for only a moment till I landed at the JFK airport where there was no one to receive me and I don’t know anyone.
I remembered I should have listened to God for a second. I started praying to Jesus to forgive me and to help me out, then a guy from nowhere came up to help me out. He helped me find a friend I was going to live with in NYC. Then I found that Jesus was with me always, even though I didn't notice Him.
My first few months was horrible, but I was not worried because I knew that Jesus was with me. I handled myself pretty good because that was the first time I ever came out of my house, which felt really good. No boundaries, no back stabbing, no pushing. I really like that and I really thanked God for everything!
But my troubles are not over yet. Even Jesus has trouble with Satan. And I am just a common man, but these troubles help me grow. I don’t even come close to what Jesus has suffered. I've had to deal with different places, different situations, and different relationships with people. I've even been homeless for a couple of months. But God gave me friends, a place to sleep, peace of mind, and a Christian family who supports my spiritual growth. God's given me great pastors and church leaders and times to serve. He's given me good jobs too.
But the best part is just having a relationship with Jesus Christ. It's the most wonderful thing that ever happened to me in my whole life. Even better than the foot I've eaten or the house I've lived in.
Since my first arrival in the USA till now, God is shaping me with different experiences. I many good Christian friends in NYC who helped me start my first steps with Jesus. Now I have an emotional and mental relationship with God. Even through it sounds and feels good the journey was really heavy on me. I never gave up on God and He didn’t give up on me either and that really helped me to know more about Him. Each and every step I took was like a lessons from a professor teaching me how I should live my life and what should I do in my life. And I'm not worrying about all the questions so much any more. Those are getting answered so that I don't even notice them anymore.
From feeling like a soulless person, now I can say I have a soul that Jesus gave to me. He is truly God and doesn't have those boundaries and regulations that tied me up before. He is love and I am truly loving Him.
Want to find out more differences between Hinduism and Christianity? Check out New Birth or Rebirth (aff link) by Ravi Zacharias.
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I really like your testimony Krist! Nice job.
ReplyDeletehi.im going through the same kind of situation..all i want to know..is that necessary to convert?because i born as hindu..i like hinduism..and i do love jesus..im stayin in russia.where almost everyday im going to church.i realy don't know.what am i doing is right or wrong?please someone guide me...
ReplyDeleteBarathi,
ReplyDeleteThank you for dropping by and checking out this article. I don't know much about you or much about your situation but there is a lot of hope because the Bible does talk about this dilemma. The Bible talks about Jesus Christ when it says in Acts 4:12, "Salvation is found in no one else, for there is no other name under heaven given to mankind by which we must be saved.” Yes. Following Jesus on his terms and not our terms requires us to follow him alone.
Your post said you practice the Hindu faith but you also love Jesus. I gather that you still hold to your religion but maybe you find yourself praying to Jesus and thinking about him. Praying to Jesus is good. He is listening to you. But if you want to truly love him as you say you do, it requires a commitment to him in the way he desires. So often we think about these things through relationship. When we get married, we're only designed to have one husband or wife. We're to be faithful to him or her. God designed us the same way for his relationship with us. We are to only have one God who we worship, praise, and adore, and God has revealed Himself to us in Jesus christ.
I think it's cool that you dared to ask these questions. God likes that. Let Jesus draw you too him. But know that when you begin your relationship with Jesus Christ, it has to be with him and him alone. Isaiah 46:9 says, "For I am God, and there is none else; I am God, and there is none like me."
A few things you might follow through on:
-Continue to ask questions here
-Continue to pray to Jesus
-Pick up a Bible and read (begin in Matthew and read the whole New Testament)
-Find a local Protestant Christian Evangelical church and continue to ask them your questions
I hope this has been helpful. Thank you for dropping by Barathi!
In Christ, -Jonathan Romig
Hello Barathi,
ReplyDeleteI know how you feel. Being born as Hindu and you love Jesus,That makes things complicated. I agree with Jonathan what he said. When I came to Christ, There are many thing you feel right or wrong. But I can tell you one thing, With Christ, you will find peace inside you and Jesus helping us in many ways. Christian is not a Religion where you need to be converted or do some event to be one. Christianity is where you believe in Jesus and He is the only way to the Heaven and no one can help you in that. You will be saved from all your sins past, present and future. But that don't mean that you have to do sins each and every day. Jesus will help you grow in His ways where is no sadness, no depression, no hurt. Jesus is the way of life and Only Jesus can help in what you are going through.
As Jonathan said, trust in Him and believe in Him and commitment your life to Him. They is no death in Him..
In Hinduism, they are some rules like you have to sacrifice an animal to get rid of the persons sins or worshiping a God or Goddess.. In Hinduism, there are so many God and Goddess which you have a offer a worship But have you wonder that all the God and Goddess are one and they belong to one God. and Have you ever imagine that if you don't worship to some Gods, you will have a bad luck in your life.. I know how you feel.. and even through God loves us, we are going through challenges which we never faced before.. that is because bible says that human being when born, are born with sins and they is no way to get rid of it. But Jesus on the other hand born from a Virgin mother and didn't do any sins at all. But he was sacrifice for our sins. Imagine your best friend giving his life for you.. can you think of anyone..? No one can.. but Jesus did for our crimes and sins.. I tell you no one did and will do for us what He has done on the cross..
I cant promise you that your life will be fruitful when you accept Jesus in your Heart.. But I can promise you one thing, You will have an eternal life and He will help you in each and every step of your life. The trails and challenges you go through they is some hope you can get through it and never to give up hope on Jesus.. He will be with you ALWAYS AND NEVER ABANDON you for your rest of your life..
I hope this helps to answer, Barathi.
Regards,
A friend
thanks for your replies...i will continue pray..i hope all my questions will be answered..
ReplyDeleteThanks for stopping by Barathi! I just prayed for you asking God to continue to work in your life and reveal himself to you. Go in the grace, love, and peace of Christ Jesus.
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